My cousins raped me when we were 12 and I want to report them but my aunties would be devastated

DEAR DEIDRE: I WAS raped by my cousins when we were all 12 and I don’t know whether to report them.

We are 25 now – grown men – and yet I still think about those times. It affected my life. One cousin held me down while my other cousin did it and then they swapped.

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I’m married and my wife is about to have our first baby.

All I can think about is them doing something like that to a child, and my feelings are heightened because I am about to become a dad.

I’d like to get revenge but my aunties would be devastated.

They’d always had that special bond as my mum and her sisters were all pregnant at the same time. They don’t know what I went through.

DEIDRE SAYS: There is support out there to help you decide how best to deal with this.

Contact The Survivors Trust who help survivors of rape, sexual assault and childhood sexual abuse see thesurvivorstrust.org or call 08088 010 818.

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