It’s hell, I feel numb & small tasks are like mountains, says Mrs Hinch as she battles the loss of her dad six months on
MRS Hinch has opened up on battling the heartbreaking loss of her dad, six months after he passed away.
The influencer, 34, who recently revealed that she is pregnant with her third child and is due very soon, explained that dealing with grief is ‘hell’.
She shared that some days she feels ‘numb’ and finds the smallest of tasks like ‘mountains too tall’ to climb.
The mum-of-two, whose real name is Sophie Hinchliffe, shared that her grief ‘comes in waves’, but feels like a ‘never ending process’ of her soul ‘crying out’.
Posting on her Instagram stories to her 4.8 million followers, the cleaning fanatic re-shared a poem originally shared by @worduponthewall.
Alongside a teddy bear with her father’s initials – AJB – and a Christmas wreath, the blonde beauty attached the poem which read: ‘Grief comes in waves, it comes in heavy like the sea, the pain comes crashing in, directly over me.
‘Some days it’s steady like the chiming of a bell and sometimes it’s quieter yet some days it’s hell.
‘Some days it pulls heavier as it tugs against the heart, some days it feels like it did right at the start.’
The poem demonstrated the numbness felt with grief, as it continued: ‘Sometimes it’s numb, nothing at all, and sometimes the smallest task feels like a mountain too tall.
‘Sometimes it’s silence as it fills every space, sometimes it’s in a picture as you long for their face.
‘Sometimes it’s words, the lyrics of a song, some day it’s home, for that’s where they belong.’
The poem also reflected Mrs Hinch’s mourning for her father, as it added: ‘A never ending process of our souls crying out, missing the person who we now live without, but it reminds us we were so lucky, having a soul to miss so much, although it’s hard to feel lucky and doesn’t feel as such.
‘But when grief gills your heat, think of the above, and remember grief is the price we must sadly pay for love.’
Alongside the poem, Sophie simply shared: “ILYD”, meaning ‘I love you dad’.
Mrs Hinch’s grief update comes just six months after Sophie shared the heartbreaking news that her dad had died “suddenly but peacefully”.
When did Sophie Hinchcliffe's dad die?
On May 8, 2024, Sophie revealed her beloved dad had passed away “suddenly, yet peacefully.
Her father actually died on April 25, 2024, but his grieving daughter waited until she was ready to share the sad news with her fans.
In April 2023, Sophie revealed how she was taking a break social media after her dad ended up in hospital.
She said at the time: “My dad is in hospital at the moment guys. My dad has never been blessed shall we say with fantastic health – from his chest, his lungs, his heart.
“He’s always struggled you know.”
She heartbreakingly added: “I just want him to be happy.”
On 25th April, Sophie lost her dad Alan after he passed away unexpectedly in his sleep.
Previously, the star shared that her late father, who suffered with life-long “chest, lung and heart” problems, was “never blessed with… fantastic health” and had been hospitalised for several weeks in 2023.
The mother, who took an eight week break from social media after her dad’s death, previously shared an update with fans regarding her grief journey.
My Dad taught me everything I know; except how to live without him
Sophie Hinchliffe
She explained: “I’d be lying if I said I was okay… in fact, I feel broken.
”I feel an extreme mix of emotions and not too much makes sense right now.
”It’s like I’ve entered this new part of my world, where only grief sits, and it feels heavy; something I can’t describe unless you’ve been there.
Mrs Hinch's full first post back on social media
The influencer penned: “Loss changes everything about you and the way you see the world.
“You are living in deep pain, unable to relate and wondering why the sun keeps rising like nothing happened.
“But I just wanted to say Thank you.
“I may not be able to get back to you all right now, but I see you and I’m so grateful.
“I’m really hoping to find my feet again one day, my family is myeverything.”
”For now, I’m really trying to navigate this new life without one of the people I love the most; one of my biggest support systems.
”I feel like my Dad taught me everything I know; except how to live without him.”
The grieving mum also took the time to thank her fans for their support during this difficult time for both her and her loved ones.
Where to get support for bereavement
There is lots of help and available if you are experiencing grief after the death of a loved one.
NHS therapy and counselling services – NHS talking therapies services are for people in England aged 18 or over. You can speak to your GP about talking therapies or get in touch with the talking therapies service directly without going to your GP.
At a loss – Find bereavement services and counselling across the UK
Child Bereavement UK – Offers support if you are bereaved after losing a child. Or if you’re a child or young person who is grieving after losing someone.
The Good Grief Trust – a charity run by bereaved people, helping all those experiencing grief in the UK.
Samaritans – if you’re struggling you can call Samaritans any time on 116 123 to talk about anything.
She continued: “I wanted to come on here and say thank you so much for all the overwhelming amount of love and support.
”I may not be able to get back to you all right now, but I see you and I am so grateful.
”Thank you for being so patient with me while I try to find my feet again alongside my family, who I am SO incredibly proud of and who I love with my whole heart.
”I’m really hoping to find my feet again one day, my family is my everything.”