Billie Lourd Opens Up About Grief While Honoring Mom Carrie Fisher on 8th Anniversary of Passing

Billie Lourd is paying tribute to her late mom Carrie Fisher.

The Star Wars actress passed away on December 27, 2016 at the age of 60.

On the eighth anniversary of Carrie‘s passing, Billie, 32, penned a message about living with grief.

Keep reading to find out more…“Ⓜ️????️Ⓜ️ It has been 8 years since my mom died. As my son would say ‘that’s a lot!’ I always dread this day,” Billie wrote on Instagram. “I spend so much time leading up to it thinking about how awful I’m going to feel. And my dread is usually right. I woke up this morning with a dark cloud over me.”

“But when my kids woke up the dark cloud dissipated and made way for bright glowing sunshine,” the Scream Queens actress continued. “Her death anniversary is like an emotional tropical storm. It pours rain a lot of the day but between the storms the light is more beautiful than on any day without storm clouds. There are no rainbows without rain.”

Billie wrote, “There’s a great Anne Lamott quote, grief is ‘like having a broken leg that never heals perfectly – that still hurts when the weather gets cold, but you learn to dance with the limp’. And that describes how I feel today perfectly. Yes the grief weather is cold and yes I may have a limp but I am absolutely dancing through life (oops I quoted wicked?). And I am actually a better dancer with my limp. My grief has given me a deeper appreciation for all the little moments of life.”

“So today I am griefful (griefy but grateful). I watch the magic that is my son and daughter and I know she is a piece of that magic,” Billie concluded. “And I feel all the things. The grief. The joy. The longing. The magic. The emptiness. The fullness. And it all coexists in a profound way. Sending my love to everyone out there who needs it. ❤️”

Last year, Billie was joined by one of Carrie‘s Star Wars co-stars while attending her mom’s Walk of Fame ceremony.