Emilie Kiser Is ‘Not Ready’ to Share Her Grief On-Camera
Five months after the death of her 3-year-old son, Trigg, Emilie Kiser addressed commenters who feel she isn’t expressing her grief properly. The influencer, who went back to posting on social media a few weeks ago, shared in a teary video, “I am very much grieving.” She added, “I’m doing my best, and I’m showing a very small portion because I’m not ready to share other things. I’m not ready to talk about other things, and that is okay.”
“Everyone is entitled to say what they want about my grief journey, but no matter what, you are not seeing the full scope,” Kiser continued. “I am sharing the moments that I can bear to film … because it allows me to step out of my reality for a second. But for people to say, ‘If this were me, I would just be crippled, and I would be thinking about them all day, and I wouldn’t be able to continue on,’ … Do you not think that everywhere I look in my house, I don’t see my child?”
“His photos are everywhere. His artwork is everywhere,” she went on. “I love that because he’s my child and I never want to forget him. But I’m not showing that on camera.”
“Unless you have lost someone and gone through grief, you will not understand what you would do or how you would act, because you just have never had to be in that position, and I hope you never have to be,” she added. “Everybody loses someone or something at some point in their lives, but losing a child is literally the worst pain. And I would not want anybody to go through it.”
In May, Kiser’s son Trigg was found unresponsive in the family’s pool while Kiser’s husband, Brady, was looking after their two children (their surviving son, Teddy, was born in March). Following Trigg’s death, the influencer filed a lawsuit to seal records relating to the incident, including video footage, citing her “ongoing grief and trauma” and “fear of public exploitation,” per People. In August, she released her first statement about the incident, noting that she takes “full accountability” for his death. Last month, she resumed posting on TikTok. In her video on Tuesday, she said that returning to content-making had been “really therapeutic” during a trying time for her family.
For now, Kiser says she’s unpacking her grief in therapy privately and will continue to do so until she’s ready to share her family’s story with “millions of people.” “I’m very much processing the loss of my son,” she said. “But I still think it’s important to share this because I’m just not ready.”
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