Lauren Goodger says he has ‘mixed feelings’ as she heads out on baby-free night out

LAUREN Goodger has admitted her “mixed feelings” about leaving her baby daughter Larose after heading out on a night out.

The doting mum took to her Instagram stories to reveal tonight marked her first baby-free evening in two years.

Former The Only Way Is Essex star Lauren, 35, admitted she was heading out for the evening for a close pals 30th birthday.

However, she explained to her Instagram fans that she was incredibly apprehensive about heading out, and leaving Larose, one, behind.

Lauren – who welcomed her daughter with ex-boyfriend Charles Drury last year – recently suffered a horrifying heartbreak when her second baby girl tragically passed away after birth.

The reality star, who was attacked shortly after her daughter’s funeral, was seen attempting to get some normality by heading out for the evening with her pals.

Revealing she was leaving Larose with her mum Cheryl, Lauren filmed her baby daughter crawling around the living room of her home.

“I’ve never been to a party or out and left Larose before. But it’s come to that time when I have to start socialising,” she penned.

“She is now over one year and I’m not pregnant any more – after two years. Nanny is babysitting so I can relax.”

“Larose used to her and I wouldn’t be going if it wasn’t my best mate’s 30th!!” Lauren continued in her post.

“I’m feeling mixed feelings but I know it’s healthy it’s her bedtime in 5 hours away loll but I can’t wait to get home already miss her.”

Lauren later returned to her stories to show off her glamorous make-up look before heading out to the birthday party.

“I’ve waited for this day that I can do my make up properly!” she said. “I was a mess when I was pregnant, now my skin, body and glow is coming back and make-up goes on much better.

“Sorry for the story spam, tonight is my first baby night out in two years. I can’t wait to dance.”

Lauren went on to show snippets from the Essex party, as she danced with her close pals on the dance floor and sipped drinks at the bar.

It comes after Lauren shared a string of new pictures after having Botox and fillers put into her lips and nose.

The Sun revealed last week that Lauren had visited a beauty salon telling fans: “I am taking every bit of self love I can.”

“It’s been 2 years since I’ve had work on my face I had 2 babies back to back and had a lot of heartache pain and traumas but I am finding me again,” she penned.

“It’s going take time for my body shape to come back and my mind to stop over thinking but slowly I am on my way I had lips , nose and anti wrinkle.”

She later posted a selfie from bed and added: “Just going show off now and be cringe taking loads of selfies cos I haven’t for a very long time. Sorry.”